Hello and Welcome! I have been thinking about blogging on here for the longest time... though I love to write, I feel like I have been on this crazy journey to get really comfortable with myself and where I am at in life before I can start sharing it with you all...
Ok ... here we go....
It all started 7 years ago when I got divorced and decided to pursue my wee dream of having my own floristry and flower farm business. Because obviously that is what you do when you have 3 young daughters and are going through a major life upheaval. You distract yourself from the pain and the guilt.
I should have taken time to heal but instead threw myself into it all. I worked hard, the business steadily grew, I was doing really well or so I thought... I started a new relationship - life was grand. Until I realised, I was actually still carrying a whole lot, it was starting to leak out and I was not doing that well at all.
This last year I have focused on healing myself, I slowed right down and took a break from work. I focused on the kids and enjoyed all of the beautiful simple thing's life has to offer.
But I won't lie, it is hard, there are times that I felt so stuck inside myself that I did not know if I would ever find my way out again. The weird thing was that I have now completely lost my passion for flowers, the thing that kept me going for so long has become the thing I cannot see in my future.
I have had to step back from my life...again... and start again...again
It's obvious to me now, there are no shortcuts, life isn't a race. we will all get there in the end. Some of us just take a little longer to find our way. However, this does not make it any easier.
Anyhow, now you know a little about my journey I can start talking about the future....
At the age of 41 I have decided to enrol in Massey University and begin my degree in Creative writing and English.
I am equally excited and scared shitless! I have always wanted to do this, ever since I was a girl I just wanted to write - I just had one little problem.... I did not like anyone to read it. So, I have had to overcome my self-doubt and shyness to get here. But it's a start, right?! Baby steps, faith and determination - that's all I got right now.
Wish me luck!
Shirellle xox
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